love/hate

Things I love:

1. Playing sports and working out. I have been trying to take control of me and feel better about myself so I have started working out every morning, sometimes it works. It is Jazzercise. Which is hilarious, but I actually enjoy it. It is great to get up early each day and get a little time to myself, and my husband is so nice he wakes up early (poor guy never gets to sleep in) so that I can go kid-free. I have realized I do much better working out when someone is telling me what to do. Too many years of playing sports and having coaches I guess. Also, (this list may take forever at this rate) I love playing softball on Thursdays. We didn't win the championship this season, which was a bummer but it was great to be back in the swing of things. Pun intended.

2. Addison is crawling! It is amazing and fun and surreal at the same time. My friend April and I were talking about it the other day and neither of us could really describe the feeling. When your first baby is hitting milestones it is exciting and new and amazing. When your second baby is doing it, it is all of those things, but it is also sad and you want time to slow down.

3. My backyard is finished! It is so great to have the grass out there and let the kids run around and play. It looks so beautiful. David did such a great job. I am so grateful and proud of him. We had a birthday party for David last weekend and it was great to have good friends around and enjoy the great weather outside.

4. Living in Tehachapi. I never thought I would say it. It took me a while, but the place grew on me. I now love living in this small town. We have made some great friends out here which makes it better. I miss my friends in Palmdale tons still but things are great out here and get better each week.

5. When Parker sleeps in. He has been getting up pretty early lately and it is not so fun. But right now it is 9:47 am and he is still out. I love the kid tons, but Parker + sleep = muuuuuch better.


Things I Hate:

1. Cancer. My dad is so sick right now and it is awful seeing him so sick. I have always been very close to my Dad, he is one of my best friends. Actually, he should be on the "things I love" list. I don't talk about it much, because it hurts and stresses me out and makes me feel overwhelmed but my heart hurts seeing my Dad so sick. It is a completely new reality when your parent is weak and vulnerable. He can't eat and has none of the personality that I am used to in him. I cannot wait for him to be better so I can have my Dad back. I will post about this more some other time.

2. Being tired. So much has been going on lately and my brain is in over-drive. I am totally exhausted. I am tired of feeling tired.

3. Stupid, annoying arguments with my mom. They shouldn't happen, but they do and it makes me tired. Which I hate, see number 2.

That is about it. I am glad my love list is longer than my hate list, that is a good sign. I suck at blogging and posting and blah, blah, blah, but I am going to work on it. It isn't so bad.